you don't know me

2009-12-16T02:36:00.001+08:00

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i change my link ! dumb i know !

2009-12-14T00:23:00.003+08:00

okay moved to www.honeymuffs.tumblr.com
so people do relink :D
Many thanks !

2009-12-06T22:40:00.001+08:00

honeymuffs.tumblr.com
wonder to continue using blogger or this?
HOW HOW HOW?

2009-11-24T23:06:00.004+08:00

Tell me,have i age ? I think my eyebags look damn big :(

Damn i wasted my whole night doing nothing. Greedy me bought a big can of campbell soup and drank everything. Now im having a really bad tummyache, i dont know why but daddy is laughing cause he thinks i deserve it for being so greedy. Serves me right. Therefore I do not have the mood to study and decided to come online to blog again, hoping this will take away the pain. How pathetic i am, two posts in a day. Seriously damn freaking bored. And oh ya, i've decided to take photos with my law textbook before returning to ah meng girlfriend :D with lots of post its inside. Lots and lots but i tell you seriously, useless one. I didnt even refer. I just use the content page. Sad waste my post its. It comes in alot of different colours i tell you, pretty ttm and cheap can !

Brother went butterfact today for some underage party. Envy lah while I am stuck at home with this stupid tummyache and lousy stats notes. I haven see lots of friends in a long time and damn looking forward to meeting them after the exams end. Just a few more days, i know! I cant wait :D Im already planning what to do everyday already. I just love planning :D And of course basketball. Need to go down and find my basketball friends already who i hope have not forgotten me yet ! *waves hands wildly*

See what can a bad tummyache do to you ? I think im crazy already.

And i think i miss you

ONE DOWN AND FOUR MORE TO GO(:

2009-11-24T18:27:00.002+08:00

I have been seeing this sentence for like the past week and now i can proudly say that one paper down and four more to go :) . Although today law paper is like super hard and i really doubt i can get a B, im still praying very hard ! Seriously after the law, i was still feeling okay when the guy beside me just started telling me all my mistakes. Okay and i trust him cause what he says make sense. But this isnt the harder paper for me. Im dreading Pf1102. I dont know how I am going to do it because everytime i try to look at the figures and notes, i feel like tearing them apart.

Chatting with thomas now and seeing how hard he studies for A level makes me a little guilty. I wish i can have that type of discipline he has then maybe i wont be in this course anymore.
So im going to start my small battle with stats later in the night. Meanwhile im going to have dinner with siew han :)
I miss playing basketball already . HAIS

And thanks everybody for wishing me good luck and all the encouragement that keeps me going. Truly appreciate it !

2009-11-18T18:11:00.002+08:00

Again, busy studying for law :(. It's never ending seriously. Read through the super thick textbook, read through the notes then copied down some notes. Now my head is full of law stuff which i hope i can retain till tuesday! Seriously what is assignee? DAMN.

Wasnt that motivated to study at first but seeing my peers studying so hard, i didnt dare to slack too much. Plus there is this free lunch waiting for me if i do well ! So bye bye to basketball, shopping, blogging (aye,maybe not) and hello notes. Sense my excitement for my notes? oh well.

Okay enough of blogging, back to notes. Looking forward to dinner with nigel and siew han. I need more sleep . I got super big eyebags, terrible.

Im trying
But i dont want to get hurt.

2009-11-16T00:34:00.003+08:00

I totally wasted my weekends which is pretty sad. Didnt study at all, super disappointing so i must work hard this week ! However had alot of fun and well my savings are decreasing in a very alarming rate. Friday out with the girls for sushi buffet and shopping ! I finally bought the dress i wanted so long ago. Then went home and out again to powerhouse with shin and her friends. Good music so pretty fun :D

Saturday night was out with secondary school friends. We bought tickets for 2012 then walked to timbre which was quite far then back to park mall because timbre was full and we wanted to play pool but the building was closed i guess. So we decided to go minds cafe but saw this nice looking place to chill and when we finally settled down, it was already 11 :( So we walked for like one hour plus ? Played darts which i think i was pretty good in not like paul and yue ann. Then back to cathay for 2012 ! By that time, we were a little sleepy ! Regretted watching at such a lousy timing,115 am :( And one slept throughout the movie. Lousy okay. The movie ended like 345 am and alot of things cropped up so we ended up walking to lucky plaza mac for breakfast.
Reached home at 7 am :)

Btw i think 2012 is quite interesting. You should catch it although it's a lil long and i keep telling yue ann i need to pee halfway through the movie.

HAHA i dont know what yue ann is doing.

Siew han :)

2009-11-11T23:24:00.002+08:00

As i was using facebook, i came across your facebook page and unknowingly i started crying. Although i dont really know you but i was really touched by what ur friends wrote on your wall. The way they tried to update you with the recent stuff like you are never gone, seriously i couldnt control myself. And i cant help thinking...

RE1801 project has come to an end which means no more late nights for me (i hope) and me laughing to myself while reading through people analysis. Okay come to think of it, it is still very funny. I got to know more about our new project mates and yupps this whole experience is very new and well fun in some sort of way. And i have learnt how to play l4d because of this project. Okay seriously i think i kind of make no sense now because im getting rather sleepy and still teary.
Stayed up in school till around 11 last night rushing through the project which means 12 hours straight. Got free ice-cream in the end then rushed home for dinner at 12 am. Really crazy. First time i did so much for a project.
Basketball session today ended badly :(

i walked away because i was terribly sad.
and you dont know how sucky it feels.

2009-11-09T20:43:00.005+08:00

Life seems pretty dull recently with project deadline to meet and major exams coming up. I missed playing basketball already. HAHA. And Im feeling so pissed reading and editing people's analysis. Okay maybe not pissed but tired I dont know. Cause not everyone gives you quality work and not everyone put in their best which means i need to clear up all the shit. But i still love compiling ! On the brighter side, at least everybody did their part.

Maybe i should go and play left4dead now. Blast zombies off so that I can feel better. Maybe i should :D wahahaha ! Okay, waiting for people to send me summary and conclusions so that i can continue editing :( .

Was watching discovery channel and i came across this show.Damn inspiring. I went to google SEA SHEPARDS. Seriously, im amazed because those people work hard for what they believe and deep down inside, i wish and hope i can too, pursue what i have always wanted in my life. It might seems silly to you now.

2009-11-06T01:50:00.002+08:00

Today aint a good day ! I kind of quarrelled with mommy and brother so wasnt in a good mood. So i did what i love best when im feeling sad; i went running ! And i think i ran super fast cause i was super pissed, i was panting and out of breath after half an hour but i felt much better. Went to play basketball but was a little giddy( think i ran too much or something) and GUESS WHAT? I ran after the cute lil basketball and fell down, the very ugly kind seriously, i backfall and flew up and landed up with a bump ! Seriously damn painful, they said i fell in a v-shaped way so i was crying because i couldnt stand the pain. They were laughing at first but stopped when i started crying. Stuck in that awful position for super long before they finally lifted me up. So my butt and body was wet and full of grass. EWWWW. And now im suffering cause i cant lie down, sit down and walk properly without feeling the pain. Tell me is this retribution, unlucky or am i just clumsy ?
I thought this year is going to be better than last year cause i fell down alot last year but guess im wrong. And people were telling me :" aiyoh fel, how come you have so many problems? last time your thumb now this ?!" haha seriously im not easy to look after :(

And thanks people for the concern over at msn :D . Appreciate it. I hope I'm going to feel better soon. Im going to see a doctor tomorrow.

And seriously not looking forward to sleep because i tried lying down and it hurts. And i tried waking up, OUCH ! Wish me luck !

Cause I wanted you there
I wanted you to care.

2009-11-05T17:52:00.003+08:00

Goodbye Ganesh and see you in three weeks time :D
Ganesh went to thailand( i think) today to be a better man and to serve the nation so a gathering was held yesterday to kinda bid farewell to him. Gathering was super fun because we did lots of first times again ! Like my first time going to Joanna house although we have been friends for 6 years and still counting.First time playing with her dog buttons, first time wanting to love and kick buttons,first time sitting in mei yue's car (awesome driver!) and first time drinking and playing truth or dare with the class.
Freaking hilarious because there were dares like guy kissing guy on the knees, on the hands and on the necks,drinks if you sucks(whiskey,coke,volka),hitting each other soles with a super freaking big slippers and some photos. And we played this game : shoot,shagged,married. We had some very funny answers :D There were also jokes like yue ann becoming so fat;cannot run, lester looking like some ex-convict and well lots more.
Went home with a bad headache, i think i had a little too much. Ganesh was also a little drunk. haha. It's kinda sweet that we still do meet up after so long but well, i miss those secondary school days. Wished Jacqueline & Yun Yun were there too !

Buttons loves me the most because i gave him chicken wings bones and it showed me tricks like sit,bang !,shake hand and it wouldnt eat until i asked it to. So cute right ?!

2009-11-04T00:56:00.004+08:00

Stayed up till 4am yesterday to do RE1801. Although nothing much was really done, still glad that at least i know what the approach is and i pray our project wont be screwed. I love facebook now really cause they have those silly silly applications like farmville and the aquarium. Seriously damn fun, you should try it.

And before i forget, yesterday i was super touched, because joanna,jacqueline and nigel gave me a birthday surprise. Although it was like 12 days after my actual birthday, im still very very happy. AHH love you guys many many. Poor jacqueline had to lie to me all the way and when we were about to leave, joanna and nigel showed up behind singing a birthday song and holding a super tasty cheesecake :D .

A birthday card to add to my collection and more memories for my 19th birthday.
Seriously i think my 19Th birthday is one of the best ever.

This is what june yong drew when we were chatting. Damn cute right !

What is happening now?
Tell me, or tell us.

2009-11-01T02:27:00.002+08:00

I dont know why but it feels good to be with you.

2009-10-29T15:17:00.003+08:00

Hurray, my thumb is not as swollen as yesterday already but still painful and purplish. I still cannot type and message using my left thumb. And i feel like a pig cause i slept quite early yesterday and only woke up like 2p.m. Good sleep but had lots of weird dreams. And now i feel sleepy again.
So im still thinking how should i celebrate halloween? AHH!

You break down my walls,

With the strength of your love
You see through,

Right to the heart of me

Beautiful, dont you think so ?

2009-10-29T00:19:00.002+08:00

I think I have been quite unlucky these few weeks. After some big bruises on my body, i now have a swollen thumb to add to my collection. And guess what, papa goh and mummy goh aint very happy with me. To put it simply, they are so pissed i think they want to scold the f word. LOL. And so, im banned from playing basketball unless my thumb heals properly which is like a few days later. They are dragging me to see a doctor too, i dont know why but they are like super worried. Seriously, it's just a swollen thumb with lots of blood clots .
I love my thumb now because it is a mixture of purple and red colour, super pretty thumb can although damn swollen. I can hardly sms you know,so sad.

Oh ya and stats paper today was a killer. Although i managed to complete, I think i did badly. I just hope that i can pass the paper and try to remain at the 50th percentile. AHH ! And school has been quite fun recently i guess. With darren amanda cherie and shu hui that kinda brighten up school life. Hang on felicia !

Somebody come help me rub my swollen thumb,please?

2009-10-27T19:06:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i wonder why we study so hard .
I mean we dont derive joy from studying right, or maybe you do ?
Because stats now makes no sense to me.
Im seriously dead.
And i know im still so far away from my dream. I hate it when i feel so lazy and slack. I cant seem to find any motivation to study and im contemplating whether to go down and play basketball. Very tempting indeed !

Ohh i just realise i have a very pro basketball friend ! Eh teach me how to play can ? lol.
To think he didnt even mention once until i saw his name somewhere.

And so work work work hard felicia !

2009-10-25T01:49:00.002+08:00

You know sometimes I really dont know what I want.
And im so tired of finding it out.

Powerhouse on friday.It was like a very last minute decision like 10pm then we decided to club and we didnt have "proper" attire so we went shopping! Anyway one of the more fun experiences cause i think we were already quite high before we went in.

Stats test on wednesday ! Shu hui say i shouldnt pon lessons anymore so Im going to try to attend all the lessons starting from monday :D And im going to study hard for mid-term test. Really tired so off to sleep ! hurray !

2009-10-21T17:26:00.002+08:00

And when you smile ;

When i see people working so hard for their goals, i feel so guilty. I have a goal in mind, something that i really want to do and i have a passion for yet i have been idling for very long. I have not been working hard i know and sometimes i regretted choosing real estate because i think i have more passion for the other course. Well it's too late for regrets now i guess so i can only just work hard and hopes somehow or rather this will brings me closer to my goal.

And is always all talk but no action. I remember saying that i will try to be more hardworking in uni, i remember saying i want to get second class honours but here i am skipping lectures and tutorials. I am much determined not to skip anymore until this semster ends. Can someone please help me ? I am so sick and tired of borrowing notes from people and not knowing anything. Seriously i screwed things up and now it's time for me to mend it.

On a lighter note, skipping classes today means i have time for my favourite activity -Reading. Seriously the time traveller's wife is such a good book that i cant stop reading it although sometimes it makes me think about what love can seriously do to you. Have you ever thought of what kind of person you would end up with in the future? And i truly hope that I will end up with someone that geniuely cares about me.

And i realise this is such a long post :D hahah ! but i just wanna say my 19 th birthday was such a blast. I celebrated with my sec, pri, and jc friends. HOHOHO. It was like one of the best birthdays i ever had. Although my lovely clique made me do silly things like wearing party hat and carrying a yellow balloon around esplanade, doing very silly dares, i really appreciate what they had done for me. THANKS :D

I guess I am really lucky to have them and I hope that in years to come, i will still be celebrating my birthdays with them !

And thanks for all the presents,cards,messages and cakes :D simply yummy !

Thanks mommy and daddy, i love you too !

And i yearn for more

But will you ever know?

2009-10-14T02:29:00.002+08:00

No matter how hard i try, i just cant go to sleep.
This is seriously bad and i dont know why.
Im not stress or anything although there is a test tomorrow.
But i just cant seem to go to sleep !
And i feel like crying already.
And my stomach feels so weird now .
oh ya i went to the kitchen and took some cough medicine hoping that it will knock me off :D
This sucks. Seriously. I hate this to the max.

And without you , this sucks even more :(

I miss...

2009-10-09T23:10:00.009+08:00

TO DO LIST :D

1)Do stats Tutorial 7
~~2)Do Re1801 Tutorial slides for B & C~~
~~3)Listen to webcast for lecture 8~~ [by 1208 am ]
4)Listen to webcast for st 1131 lecture 12
~~5)Listen to webcast for RE 1803~~ [0253am]
~~RE1802~~[by 0210 am]
PF1102
~~6)Do tuorial for RE1802~~
7)Tutorial Re1803
~~8)Read up on JTC~~[1500]
9)Insert diagrams for pf1102 report
~~10)Compile cherie and amanda part for law~~
11)Post modernism and modernism building forms
12)Roof ! (read up )
13) Do journal for - Chap 5
6
7
8
14) Pack my room that looks so much like a junkyard now.

Seriously i am dying. So much work and so little time. I shouldnt have procastinate :( Now i can only have myself to blame. HAIS ! OKAY WORK HARD !!!

and i saw something today that kind of make me feel weird,
and i know how deep have i sunk into this.
I hate it seriously because now im all sad again,
yet for the first time,
I cant tell you what it is .
If only i have stop myself in time.
If only i haven click that stupid shit link.
If only..........

2009-10-07T02:57:00.002+08:00

And so when you told me everything is alright,
i believed.

Im rushing through law project now but it looks sucky no matter how hard i try to edit. HAIS :(
Im hungry again, oh dear.

Things to do :
-Pf1102 assignment
-Copy stats lecture
-Read up on last week lectures
-Read up on this week lectures
-Re1802 first paragraph
-Pack my room
AHHHH ! which means less basketball & less outings. I should stay at more home and be more focused.

Cause i need you so much.

2009-10-05T23:23:00.002+08:00

E LEARNING WEEK =Holidays (:
However not enjoying much. Projects to be completed , room to be pack and lots of notes to read. I am so dead :(

I went to try out waitressing at some hotel with shin and i tell you it's not easy as it seems. I will never ever trouble any waitors/waitresses again because omg their job are like hardwork. Now my right arm is aching badly. Tsk, i actually thought i was quite strong for a girl. How wrong !

Off to swimming tomorrow , like seriously one of my favourite sports of all time.Im craving for food.Delicious glorious food.

& i slept well these few nights
Because of it .
Crazy right, i know .

2009-10-02T01:21:00.003+08:00

Cause you caught me unaware,
And now im even more confused.

I went to lot one to catch this movie called "shorts" with shin. It was like one of the must watch for me but it was a little disappointing. I mean the show is really quite funny but believe me,it's really for the lil kids to watch. The movie theatre was full of parents with their kids and some of them were pretty cute cause they stood up and pointed at the screen when the movie starts. Some actually went "EWWWWW" when the adults kissed. So innocent and cute right? Yes i know. Because of those scenes & the movie itself, i couldnt stop laughing at some point of time.

Oh ya and maybe im going to meet joanna, jacq and nigel tomorrow. I cant wait cause we going to have steamboat buffet but now waiting for the slowpoke nigel to confirm. HAHAHA.then on saturday im going to meet them again .

And i wanted to say thanks to some and you all should know why. Really appreciate it:D
and the "breakfast" and "supper" with them make me feel so much better somehow but i dont know why. And im really sorry for being so troublesome at times,yea.

Random but i really really want to get a electronic? lantern so that i can walk around the park and show off.

Im grateful,thank you !

2009-09-30T00:13:00.000+08:00

I cried again and i know it's not worth it.
Friends aint suppose to be like that.
Especially when i thought they were so much better than my other friends.
And guess what, i think you all are so happy now cause i cant stop crying.
thanks so much.

2009-09-29T13:29:00.000+08:00

You got me laughing when i sing,
You got me smiling in my sleep.

Yes I managed to sleep yesterday,so happy ! However woke up like quite early because mommy was screaming for me to accompany her for breakfast. I kind of like procastinated till like 1 pm cause I was really tired and I fell asleep again. She went off with my brother few minutes ago. I bet she is like really angry now. Im so dead i think :( No more pocket $$ for today. HAIS :(

On a lighter note, Im meeting my lovely shin at plaza later to do some homework. It's time for me to start studying and be more serious in work.Seriously i feel so lost for ytd business module because i could neither understand everybody answers nor answered the prof questions :( And like THANKS THANKS THANKS for SHU HUI & DARREN to do up the ppt slides while i did nothing. Im so sorry !

Oh ya & please let me sleep tonight.
Please let me fall asleep easily. I am not looking forward to a sleepless night .

& they say paramore is releasing a new album ?

I can open my heart without a care.

2009-09-29T01:29:00.000+08:00

I cant believe it. Holidays are finally over which means no more fun and more projects coming up.Read up on law project and seriously it is like freaking hard.OMG TELL ME HOW? Then darren always say our group damn bimbo one :( On a lighter note, E learning week is next week and im meeting nigel & jac for ZOUK :)

I think I have not been sleeping for the past 24 hours and i feel like a zombie now. I was like so stressed up for stats test that i couldnt sleep the whole night. It was terribly disappointing for me because i shut down my lappie at 2am then ended up wasting three hours tossing and turning. Issit my face going to grow many many pimples because i never sleep for ONE WHOLE NIGHT? :( .Oh ya cabbed to school today with AMANDA so that we wont be late for the test (: and i nearly vomitted plus super giddy cause the cab uncle kept braking.Stats test was alright but i think i got a few qns wrong already. I think need to work harder for my motivation ! Motivation = Glorious FOOD :).Please let me at least 23 ."PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE !"

Thanks those that texted me wishing me good luck ! Much appreciated :D

Oohh ! & thanks so much for accompanying me throughout the night :)

( oh ya,remember to get ur 2.5 score. Work hard !)

because i do not want to start relying on you.

because i wouldnt stop.

2009-09-27T02:14:00.000+08:00

Had timsum buffet today :D
Been spending loads of $$ this hols. I need to save up seriously cause i do not have any more income coming in.So sad :(
And im rushing through my stats tutorials now cause i promised shu hui im going to do it by hook or crook.And i feel so bad that both she and darren had done the RE1801 Project.Im very very sorry !

And im waiting here wondering;
Thinking how silly i am now.
Sometimes i wish i know what i want.

Cause i aint nobody

2009-09-26T03:44:00.000+08:00

Hurray project meeting at national library today !
Wasnt very conducive but so much better than the previous fieldwork meeting !
& we webcammed with shu hui lappie (:

And im going for timsum buffet tml !

& everything happens for a reason.
Just like why i met you.

Cause i left my heart with you

2009-09-24T15:02:00.000+08:00

A few more days and school is starting .I realised im really behind time for loads of stuff yet i do not have the motivation to do it.Seriously i tried to study for STATS but the renovation noises at my neighbour house (next door) annoyed me ttm !How come i so suay,want to do project or what then got all these noises.Bang head on the wall and diee can.And then how come they start work so early? Im like awake by 9 am everyday because they start all that drilling. URGHH!

I need to find stuff to motivate me to do work :D Like maybe buy me a eeyore can mummy ? LOL. Okay back to doing my pf1102 stuff. It's freaking damn hard i swear.Wonder how shu hui did hers. HAIS !

Oh ya went to CBD for fieldwork on tuesday.The second or third time i have ever step into the CBD and we were all like freaking pissed cause some things cropped up as usual and that irreponsible person who didnt come. And if he really does has family problems, i guess we cant do anything for now. Just hope he can tell us what is going on soon and how should this project continues? With/without him. Seriously i sooo prefer JC/ SEC life.So much more fun fun fun ! And less backstabbing idiotic hateful friends.Looking forward to next Saturday with JAC & NIGEL (:

LOVE HER !

& im listen to BOYS LIKE GIRLS songs. Super nice :D

Cause when i close my eyes & drift away
I think of you & everything's okay
Im finally now believing.

2009-09-21T03:22:00.000+08:00

Night Cycling yesterday with hui shan,felicia ang and charlene!
It was a very different experience and seriously we were so shocked that we completed it.From ECP to INDOOR STADIUM to TOWN to SHENTON WAY to ECP.
Of course some stuffs happen on the way :
-bang onto shin's bike causing the chain to drop off,then i tried to fix but failed and my hands were like black(grease)
-Knocked my own bike down and have to find nice people to help me fix
-then left my handphone and wallet at laopausat and we were like 10 mins away.Cycled back with my might and luckily i found it :D
-Got honked by car !(OMG)
-ME and SHIN didnt want to lose the guys so we managed to overtake them during the 5km ride back to ECP
-Taking lots of silly photos on the way
-Tried to watch my first sunrise but failed cause too cloudy.
Seriously im very proud of us :DDD

When the going get tough,
Where will you be?

2009-09-19T00:56:00.000+08:00

Cause you dont even know how i feel about you.

Rovers Nght Cycling tomorrow.
I cant wait. :D

And im scared,
Cause im vulnerable again.

2009-09-17T01:13:00.000+08:00

Slept at 5 am and woke up at 630am feeling oddly refreshed.
However by 1, I couldnt take it anymore and doze off,waking up only to see darren taking photo of me sleeping =( Then meet up with JJ to take bus to JP and meet nigel and jacqueline.I realise it has been ages since i last saw them and they kept complaining that I always ps them.

We were talking about the silly/goofy stuffs we did during our sec school lives,laughing till we teared.And the Dm always telling me not to act innocent !

:Cut fairuzana hair and dump it on some guy's (we hated) table
:Played with the toilet hose,splashing pails of water in classroom
:Playing soccer in class and corridor
:Playing OUJA board(is that how you spell?)
:Tearing newspapers and throwing it down from 4 storeys(had to apologise to some class and pick up the litter after that)
:Watch the same horror movie thrice and still got frightened
:Cheat people money to take more neoprints! (LOL)
:Dye hair in the school toilet
:Ate like 6 icecream cones in a day
:Satish giving us $ to accompany him to everywhere (LOL)
:Polishing boots during lessons,some teacher even threw the boots out of the class
:Found a little kitten & kept in class.( It was damn funny cause the kitten started mewing and Ganesh started imitating it so that the teacher will not know )

And one that changed our life a little . I wont say it though.All of us really missed those days. In fact,im getting older already and im scared. Because they say the older you are,the lesser friends you will have. Tell me how many will i have ?

It's kinda hard to type such a long post cause my hands are stinging with pain and a little swollen no thanks to some people !And yes random but im very happy today :D

And i get lost in you;
You got me,oh you got me .

2009-09-15T17:57:00.000+08:00

Slept at 3 last night ,busy uploading photos & tagging it.
I woke at 4pm today feeling so refreshed :D
Had a nightmare last night & i woke up crying.
It felt so real and i was afraid.

Oh yes hurray i think im meeting nigel and jac tml ?
It has been like ages since i last saw them.
They are really like one of my good friends since secondary school !

When i woke up crying,i realise i have no one to call.
Because i wouldnt want you to see how weak i was.

2009-09-15T01:18:00.000+08:00

Today is one of those unlucky days !A little late for school but was very happy that i brought my brownie for breakfast. However one hour plus after eating my brownie,there was this queasy feeling in my stomach which i tried to dismiss .Failed in the end because i ended up running to the computing block in need of a toilet. And when i finally found one, the cleaner was washing and didnt allow me to use.So i have to run to the third floor =( . And so i was late for the lecture. Halfway through law lecture, i ran to the toilet again. And then at vivo,toilet again. OMGG. and well my gastric problems are back again. I need to eat more regularly ! No more skipping of meals !AHHH BAD DAY =(

I went back to Global Brands Group again to see my excolleagues and siew han and i realise i really miss the place alot. Miss working there, walking around with my pink melody slippers,eyecandying my boss,miss talking to chee yan,miss online shopping with siew han,miss having lunch with them. And everybody said i lost weight. Make me happy ttm !! Im going back again you know to have lunch with them :DDD

PHOTOS (:
Today at vivo ~
With amanda,shu hui & cherie !

Will you feel the same way as i do ?

2009-09-12T01:02:00.000+08:00

Sweat alot today cause me,charlene & darren went for Recreational Basketball.
Played with the seniors there. HAHA then one of the girls told me im damn zhun (: Make me happy ttm !

Was a little sad that i couldnt meet dilys today but i heard that she is fairer and slimmer . So nice,i want also. HAHA i bought my whitening lotions some few weeks ago but i keep forgetting to use it. Shall remind myself to use it more. Too tan not good !

Stupid random post~

2009-09-11T12:14:00.000+08:00

Okay im blogging using my mobile=) . Im in school now having stats tutorial which is like super hard! hoho going ngee ann later with shin and darren for lunch and bball . Then back to school for my cca !

Back to stats tuorials :(
And ouch my ankle is hurting .

hold on (:

You are gonna be afraid

2009-09-09T23:45:00.000+08:00

I saw, turn around and walk away ,
because i do not have the courage to know.

I dread going to school on Mondays & Wednesdays because there are countless of lectures and tutorials. LOL even with darren,shu hui & cherie around ,i still fell asleep in lecture plus shu hui say i look unglam ttm !

Oh ya & today is dad & mum 20th anniversary so i help dad to buy roses for mum.I think my mum is the luckiest woman cause i think my dad is super sweet :D Dont you think so ?SO SO SO HAPPY ANNIVERSARY :D I LOVE YOU ALL TTM !

I saw the loveliest lil pretty kitty today ,so very tiny.She ( i think) was mewing away so pitifully.Aww i wanted to take her home but was afraid dad & mum wouldnt agree due to my asthma. So i hugged the kitty,played with her a lil while and managed to take two photos of her ! Im happy :D. She makes me think of meow meow ( another kitty) that i found on the streets and took care of her until she was a lil older. HAHA she was the kitty that made me overcome my fear of cats.& even after she was adopted, i went to play with her everyday.She is super cute because she always comes running out the door when i called for her name. I miss her already.

MAMA's flowers :D

LIL kitty ( Palm size ) haha!

Cause you always learn to hold the things you want to say.
You are always gonna be afraid .
Cause somtimes the truth hurts.

Yea,damn gastric flu .

2009-09-08T15:40:00.000+08:00

SMILEYY

My stomach aint feeling well these days.
Have been going in and out of the toilet since like yesterday night. EWW
I think im going to rest again. Just couldnt resist the urge of blogging. TEHEE.

Please go away horrible thing :D

Sometimes i dont feel like going school already because it feels so fake to be there not knowing who is nice and not. I shouldnt have lowered my defences, shouldnt have thought that they were all good and i wouldnt feel so hurt now. I wish i could just ignore all this,I wish i wouldnt care.I wish i could pretend i didnt know anything. But im glad that i know who are my true friends and these people are the ones that i will treat them nice and sweet.

It is easier said than done.
Im trying :D

2009-09-05T13:05:00.001+08:00

I think i have been sleeping really late every night and my eyebags are becoming bigger :( So im very determined to try to sleep at 11 pm everyday,well except for the weekends.

And think i will have to start reading my notes soon and study real hard !So bye bye to shopping trips and television shows.

And you know something ?Going into uni is so much scarier now than i thought so because you do not know who are the ones that are your true friends.Those who you thought were kind and friendly turn out to be bitches and bastards(sorry for the language but im seriously disgusted)! I mean grow up lah.All of you are older than me but yet capable of doing such chilish things. I do not know what to say seriously but get a life here people.

And finally more photos to make me happy and bright again. With lovely shin :DD

Love aint easy,girl.

2009-09-04T00:37:00.000+08:00

What will love do to you ?
Will it make you a stronger person?

Cause love makes me feel vulnerable.

Please,this feeling is so real.

2009-09-01T22:29:00.000+08:00

Somtimes i think im still like a child.
18 going 19 and yet the simplest thing can make me cry like nobody business.
You know it's kinda embarrassing.Ah !

And shit i just remember that Im having a test tomorrow=(. Stats lecture tomorrow means that i will have to wake up super early like 640 am again !! I hope i wont late for lecture.Please ,please let me wake up.

Sometimes is not i dont want to play or join in the matches but i always feel that im lousy compared to the others and i dont want to drag the others down or to lose the match although i know is just a game.As much as i would love to join, sometimes i feel so lousy then well im sure nobody wanna play with me. Being a girl sucks when you wanna play basketball seriously.And i guess nobody freaking cares.

P.S i know i think alot but i cant help it !

I miss meow meow already. Aint she pretty ? :D

My cute lil niece.

And when I start to care for you; im worried .
What is all this about ?

That's when you tell your love ;

2009-09-01T14:32:00.000+08:00

IFG basketball was fun i guess in a very tiring way. Im proud of us seriously. Only like 7 in a team yet we managed to win 1 draw 1 and lose 1. HAHA ! And yes i didnt foul anyone this time i guess so i am very happpy cause i used to foul people like nobody business. However playing full match with girls is damn scary cause i came back with like three bruises on my face,butt and leg. Aiyo girls ah !

Hmmm school have been quite scary recently due to some guy which seriously irriates all of us. But im trying to still be nice to him although he made me cry that time. I mean we are all growing up already so i hope we can all deal this maturely.
Some friends are so SO SO SO much nicer :D

I need to study hard.I need to study hard.I need to study hard.I need to study hard.I need to study hard.I need to study hard.I need to study hard!!

i think im happier now. Are you are you are you ?
Seriously i want to know how you feel sometimes.

2009-08-29T00:02:00.000+08:00

ouch OUch OUCH !

Tomorrow we will be having our ifg basketball :D. I cant wait seriously yet so stress at the same time. I really want to see how much i have improve ever since after the a division match. Really hope that i will be of help to the team,really hope that i will not make silly mistakes. Really hope we wont lose that much or at least win some matches ! My legs are aching oh dear =(
Thanks thanks those who at least help me or gave me advice on how to improve. I truly appreciate it. THANKS !
"Yes felicia,you can do it ! "

How do we carry on from here?

2009-08-28T00:10:00.000+08:00

im sorry seriously.(if you ever read my blog)

Damn fever.Damn stomach.Damn gastric.
Im off to sleep cause my head hurts.

2009-08-27T14:04:00.000+08:00

Doing :Reading my stats lecture :D

Omg it's only 2:04 pm and i can already annouce that today is an unlucky day ! Woke up early enough to accompany mommy for lunch. After eating, it started to rain. Clever me didnt bring umbrella so i have to walk in the rain.Fell down thrice cause me wear lousy slippers. OMG ! Finally i decided to take off my slippers to walk properly.Now my butt hurts and im wet ! But hahah all my fault. Unlucky right .SIANN !

Mommy was telling me how crybaby i was when im young.She said i always cried at the slightest things,afraid of everything. I think i have grown stronger already. Although i still cry but i dont do it often already. So mommy please dont worry about me anymore ! Me is good girl okay(:

I think i dont deserve you .

2009-08-25T01:07:00.000+08:00

Law & biz tutorial today was terrible and horrible.Cause everybody were like so efficient and smart can.Only my group and another couldnt produce our ppt slides but every other group did it. OMG. Stress until i got a headache when i was going home. Going to school saps my energy greatly. Haha feel like asking everybody to chill !

Still having muscle aches all over.Please recover soon :D Felicia ! Looking forward to training again tomorrow. Gastric problems coming up again. I think i need to have my meals often and prompt.

and i felt happy today.
Like really jumping for joy.

2009-08-24T00:31:00.000+08:00

Seriously i hate law homework. Law is hard law is terrible. Nonono! I must learn to like it :D .
Still rushing through my tutorial homework,filling in with childish anwswers that i feel like tearing it up.
Please tell me what i am doing ?

Thanks those who were still so nice encouraging me all the way after i change my personal msg to "Homework please go away !" lols!

Cause seeing you make me feel happy.
Do you feel so too ?

Yes this is just too silly.

2009-08-23T00:55:00.000+08:00

If only you could see,
If only you could feel,
If only you could understand.
Will you try to ;
Or I am just too silly?

I woke up today with bad bad muscle ache. I guess yesterday i over exert my poor lil muscles ! But it has been really really long since i had muscle ache. Used to have it every mon,wed,fri when we had basketball training. I miss trainings ! Miss laughing,miss applying sunblock,miss the sunny weather and I miss the Girls !

And it is now raining heavily.Like really really heavy.I just love to snuggle with my eeyores on my bed on a rainy night.It feels damn good seriously.Go try it :D.

hahaha! used to be friendster userpics.OMG !

2009-08-20T00:50:00.001+08:00

You are not worth those tears.You are not worth those tears.You are not worth those tears.You are not worth those tears.You are not worth those tears.You are not worth those tears.You are not worth those tears.You are not worth those tears.

I could have been stronger.You totally spoil my day,thanks alot seriously.

2009-08-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you feel tired,you want to take a break.
Tired of trying,tired of giving your best in everything,tired of people treating you like some crap.Tired of being crap in basketball,Tired of people comparing you,tired that people look down on you.No matter how hard i try,people dont take me seriously,bully me and now i sound like a lil kid complaining about the simplest things in life.Im sorry seriously but im sick and tired.
And yes im freaking crying again i dont know why but i know i will be alright tml :D
I will forget everything cause i always do.

I suck at basketball seriously.
:(

2009-08-13T18:34:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO !
Started school yesterday.Seriously i was so looking forward while the others were complaining that school was starting. Dozed off for both lectures, because the seats are like freaking comfy for me and only me (I dont usually do that,serious! If i continue with this,I think i can say goodbye to a higher cap,say goodbye to good results.I need to stay AWAKE !! and for the first time,i actually signed in the my cors and ivle website and helped out in the tutorial balloting :D

Last night,my brother moved into another room so i slept alone last night. It was a a lil scary and weird.Couldnt sleep much cause my mind kept wandering to those scary thoughts.Finally ,I was too tired and fell asleep !I hope tonight will be better .

And i craving for sushi buffet and BIG sambal stingray can ?Somebody please ask me or bring me out for all these.I will be a happy girl ttm !

Give me a rainbow

2009-08-09T02:02:00.000+08:00

Delight,Delighted,Delightful!
Today i feel like miss sunshine :D Like everything is so nice and the world is so beautiful.And even if all the problems start coming my way,i feel that i can handle it.Yes i can take on the whole world,i hope...

And i watched the new read the article,but i couldnt understand why.We are still so young,so much things yet to be done.Dreams i have so many,so many not done and some never. I hugged my mother today and told her how much i love her and she made me promised that i will tell her everything and not keep it to myself.I will try :D

Oh ya i thought i wasnt so unlucky anymore.I thought my bad luck all washed away BUT guess i was wrong.
Blisters on my left foot,Broken nail on the right,Cut on right hand,swollen finger !
Seriously im not complaining , but how come "I SO SWAY ALSO ?" OMG OMG OMG !Plus me is bimbo cause i cried. AHH SO STUPID !

OH YES HAPPY NATIONAL DAY !
SAY it with me :" I love SINGAPORE !"

MOMMY BDAE CELEBRATION:
Everybody refused to take photo but finally gave in and we started camwhoring.Lots of photos but lazy to updload all.

silly yes , silly

2009-08-06T23:21:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I fell down alot of times.
Yesterday, I dropped a glass and cut my hand.
Yesterday, I stood on a bike.
Yesterday, the girls make sure I was safe. THANKS !
Yesterday, I felt happy.

Today I felt like i could just continue running and never stop.
I thought i was happy,i was content. But i was just silly.So i kept quiet the way back and they thought i was frightened.Im sorry but im really not.So please dont apologise anymore.

And the tears came.
I realised i haven been crying for a long time.
And it feels good to let everything out.
Im weak and i hate it.

For my heart

2009-08-04T01:40:00.000+08:00

I waited and waited;
but the pain did not go away.

Training was very relaxing and sad cause not enough people came.Everybody is falling sick =(.
And tml i have to wake up at 6 plus for FLAG DAY .OMG OMG OMG !
My og group people like damn enthu can.

Oh ya! I just had a very scary and funny gathering below.

Please give me a sign or anything;
Anything to make me feel better.

HOLD ME CLOSE

2009-08-02T23:25:00.000+08:00

Sometimes things happen and you dont really understand why.
Make all these go away will you?

Yes supper at mac was hilarious cause everybody was turning red except for me and sy !I told them drinking was bad. LOL.

Looking forward to tomorrow cause i have bball training.It's been a long long time since i went for a basketball training.Kinda miss those days where we worked so hard but i dont want those muscles though (:

LAST WEEK...

Will you please stop making me feel this way ?

Be there for me,will you ?

2009-07-30T01:50:00.000+08:00

Three blisters on one foot. That's terrible seriously.
Anyway orientation today was fun and i was crazy as usual.
Sadly unable to make it tomorrow.

Pictures soon i promised the girls already.
Who want webcam with me ?!

Im getting tired of being me;
tired of being strong .
Let me cry on please

Please hold on

2009-07-28T00:17:00.000+08:00

I finally bought a laptop :D.
I cant wait to upload everything but somebody please teach me how.
Just pop two panadol pills , i mean chew .YUCKS
so off to sleep now and hope my fever goes away soon.

im banned from playing bball for now :(

i miss my long hair.

2009-06-26T20:48:00.000+08:00

I am homesick. How i wish i could have gone home with the rest but nope i stayed on hoping that everything will be over soon.We are now all waiting for the results and if everything is okay,i'll be home tml! Staying in the room alone is really ... You got nobody to talk to and time crawls like really really slow.

I miss delicious glorious food =) I miss my soya watermelon juice, chicken wings, sting ray,steak.

2009-06-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

Im so unlucky seriously.
Orientation camp is next week yet im having a real bad sore throat.
Im croaking now;I sound so soft and gentle beacuse my throat freaking hurts =(
and my colleagues aint getting use to the gentle me.Tehee .
And next my ogl did not call me. They called Natalie,called Shu hui but they missed me out issit?
I paid $$$$ already !!

Already at my sixth Strepsil and still going.
Plus like 3 bottles of 1.5 litres of water.
Please make this go away !

2009-06-07T16:19:00.001+08:00

Photos from last week ( Yun Yun birthday)

Finally. A good talk and well hope things go well for now.

Yesterday was SHIN YUN 19th Birthday Celebrations.
We went to Pariss for the lunch buffet then off to two rounds of bowling which i sucks idk why =(
Hui Ting is the pro =D but i improve in the second round and im proud of it.
So we had this team competition and we( huiting,huishan and me) won although the other team got more pro players .WAHAHAHAH.
Then we went to play pool which suprisingly we lost !Oh well..
Town to chill and shop then off to Powerhouse. Alot of funny and well weird encounters with the people there (hehe).
Anyway thanks to those who protected and helped me or the girls =)

Admission Talks next week.I cant wait to see my new mates !

One Sweet Love

2009-06-04T21:41:00.000+08:00

Life have been really relaxing these few days.
I was sick on both Monday and Tuesday and i didnt attend work again today due my stupid blister.
Ahh then now i feel so guilty cause Im absent for three days . Guilty =(

The mess i've created, i think it's kinda deep now. i need to get myself out,Somehow.

On a lighter note,orientation camp is coming =D
Me is excited yet nervous and a hundred different kinds of others. AHHH !
Blister please be okay soon cause me want to walk and run properly and play basketball soon.
Like tomorrow okay ?

Sleepless nights you creep inside of me
Paint your shadows on the breath that we share
You take more than just my sanity
You take my reason not to care.
No ordinary wings I'll need
The sky itself will carry me back to you
The things I dream that I can do I'll open up
The moon for you
Just come down soon

Tell me you are the one

2009-05-28T15:41:00.000+08:00

Ytd was really crazy.I took half day to settle my uni application then went to swiss to play basketball with the juniors ! The end result : Become so brown & lots of big big blisters ! Okay me and sy played like ten matches altogether under the scorching sun .I can see all my fats dissolving away yknow.oh ya! Finally have the chance to play full court match =D

And today im off to a shopping spree with siew han at town. Me hope can buy my black flats and the brown shoes that i have been screaming for before GSS. Tell me there's big sale there now.

2009-05-27T00:13:00.000+08:00

HOHO im jumping with joy cause there's no tuition for the next two weeks =D
SO after receiving my pay,met up with bimb and off to suntec.Yay bought a pair of heels at club marc cheap cheap ! So im heading down to vivo outlet tml hoping that i can find my facvourite pair of flats there.PLease let me find it then i can be a happy girl =)

Applying for uni is so troublesome.Luckily we have shu hui for updates .Random but work was fun today cause we keep snapping photos.Snap here and there , we even pulled the senior ones to take with us.Life's good for now and i intend to keep it this way !

Im caught in the middle.
Show me how ,tell me how.

Would you ?

2009-05-24T23:52:00.000+08:00

Aint he hot ? My current EYECANDY =D

Playing basketball ,shopping ,hanging out.
so simple yet loved !

Tell me everything again.

2009-05-17T11:50:00.000+08:00

Im down with flu for like 3 days already. Like many many people have been falling sick in my company and they say im the source =(. Seriously it's not me! Okay i kinda feel bad cause i've sniffing here and there, disturbing colleagues at work.Sorry !!But they have been really nice giving me tissue box and packet of tissues =D

Off to sentosa in less than 1 hour time. I cant wait. SUN SAND SEA !! OMG =D
and i hope it wont rain .

MISS SIOW ! PICTURES SOON !!

Was it all just a lie ?
Cause i cant feel anything , any.

Hanging on aint easy girl

2009-05-10T21:56:00.000+08:00

Some day I'm gonna find it wish i knew what i was looking for inside the disarray.I woke up this morning don't know where I'm going. But it's alright I wouldn't have it any other way.Struggling,i feel so alone yet i must have the courage to choose. You know, life aint easy dear so hang on .

I went swimming with shin yun today. Hopefully , this is the start of my plan to lose MY FATS . oh yes FATS ! Im going to start finding dancing classes because i want to learn the basics then off to popping and locking. DOPE ! And tomorrow I'm going out with the girls to town for another shopping trip. OMG i wish i have more $$$$ so that i can buy more clothes =D

The sun will continue to rise tomorrow.
Buck up felicia !

Do you even know?

2009-05-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

Today i get to enjoy some of the "felicia" moments, which means reading my book alone quietly without disturbance =DD.
I hope mothers' day come soon cause i make my mummy super mad and now im hoping that the present i bought for her is enough to make her talk to me again.

oh yes and it's SENTOSA next week with the girls.Cant wait !BEEACCHHHHH wait for me !!

I hate to show how weak i am.
Sometimes.
Do you even know that im afraid of getting hurt?

2009-04-26T12:08:00.000+08:00

Oh yes im going to meet the girls okays for some more shopping !
Then i'll start saving up,seriously (:

Sometimes in life,we have to learn to let go.
We are all still learning, aren't we ?

You make me feel this way

2009-04-11T17:53:00.000+08:00

You could be... Something that's more than expectedThese few days have been really tiring !
Cant get enough of sleep, i think i've aged alot =(
Oh yes and tml im heading out for shopping !!

But I don't want to escape
I just can't stop

once is enough

2009-04-08T22:00:00.000+08:00

I let you in once but it's not going to happen again.

The way you make me feel, I dont want to go throught this all over again.
Just let me be.

You make me stronger

2009-04-05T22:55:00.000+08:00

FELICIA is happy cause she spent the past two days with her family and her cousins !

breathe me in

2009-03-22T20:57:00.000+08:00

Tell me with so many out there why I always turn to you

A long day today. I had to drag myself to work today.It's was horrible terrible.Im still feeling weak all over .Go away cramps will you? (:
Im craving for chocolates!

And it's so easy to see
That the blame is on me

2009-03-21T23:37:00.000+08:00

do you know sometimes you make me so confused?

oh yes! i finally brought my swimming costume today after like thousands of fittings which mean im going swimming soon like maybe tomorrow ! I cant wait to start exercising again cause im feeling rather fat ever since i started to work (:

My conversation with my lil student on Thurs
ME:eh i ask you i fat annot ?
Zavis: no.. (shakes his head shyly)
He makes my day =D WAHAHAHAHA

lala~

2009-03-11T16:36:00.000+08:00

felicia is very happy cause she sent out a post through FEDEX (:
looking forward to friday and the weekends !

you must learn to be strong

2009-02-27T15:29:00.000+08:00

I know i have to be stronger and i will .
i have been happier this few days..

you don't know me enough

2009-02-10T07:18:00.000+08:00

After a crazy weekend with my sec school friends,I'm actually enjoying the quiet time i have at home these two days, well except that my swollen eye is really irritating me =( (ALOT). Starting work next monday which means only a few more days of freedom. Back to reading my book and resting my swollen eye (:

ME AND NICKO ( yellow flowers (: my fav!)